Why I hate my Birthday

Next Sunday at 4.30pm I will be turning 53 so how am I supposed to feel?

I need to lose some weight like most and am finding it near impossible, lift my game on the moisturising routine, stop looking like a dag seeing I work from home, make more lists so I can work more efficiently, remember to take the rubbish out on Sundays not wait till Monday morning at 5am, try and get the only child left at home to get more organised and clean up after herself, make some time for me or basically stop wasting time, go walking everyday like I used to (still don’t know why I broke that routine), remember to take meat out of the freezer for dinner (even though I have a reminder in my phone that goes off every morning I still forget), drink more water, finish painting the house etc.......

It’s at this time of year I reflect on the situations in my life and how I want them to change in the next year. I look at how I have failed in the previous 12months and wonder where the time has gone. Unfortunately I have trouble in looking at the things I have achieved and I have no idea why. Today I read a headline about women in the corporate world not succeeding as they do not look into the future or maybe we are just so used to being the ones that have to look after the details.

I have written before that it was around my birthday last year that I decided to find a platform to write about my experiences, thoughts and opinions and here I am. I wanted to see my friends from interstate – did that last October and had a wonderful couple of weeks. One of my best friends suggested a ‘girl’ cruise so 6 of us went for 10days in March this year. Last year with the aid of natural supplements I regained my energy and concentration levels after doctors had failed and since then I now represent this company and their wonderful products. My daughters are happy, decent working women with strong opinions. 

Maybe the devil is in the detail and that is what is frustrating me so much as I never seem to achieve it. I really feel no different than I did 15 years ago so maybe I’ll just be 38 instead of 53 – sounds good to me!

I promise myself that I will work on all the details over the next year but only if they do not get in the way of the much bigger more important things that are in my life.

Happy Birthday to all the Gemini's, may your year ahead be as good as mines going to be xxxxx